Happy New Year to all of you! I have definitely missed you all so much and as I write this first post of 2012, I pray that all of you are well and happy. I feel compelled to write this blog to sort of explain where I've been for the past several months.
2011 was a year of major ups and downs for me: I lost my job of 13 years, I went to Chicago to take professional makeup artistry courses and attend the first-ever Makeup Show, moved to a new residence because of increasing problems with management at the old place, helped my daughter plan her wedding, designed, drafted and made her dress, and then...fell into a deep depression. I became fearful and anxious and for a time couldn't even leave my apartment to take out the trash, much less go to the store or to a job. My thoughts were a muddle and it was a major effort just to get out of bed in the mornings. I've had one previous episode of major clinical depression, but in retrospect I've probably suffered with varying degrees of depression since my teens. One of the worst aspects of this is that in some corner of my mind, I felt that I'd let you, my readers down and myself because I couldn't continue with my postings and my YouTube videos. I just COULDN'T DO IT--even the thought of writing or taping was beyond terrifying.
Today I can say that with the prayers of lots of people who love me and the help of a very good counselor, I am making progress towards getting back to "normal". This post is part of my "normal". Am I 100% back yet?--no, not quite, but I'm getting there. I'm still having anxiety issues and putting myself "out there" again is a real conscious ongoing decision but I have decided that 2012 is the year that I will strive to "GO GET IT"--I will aggressively promote my blog and my freelance makeup business, I will defeat this depressive state and I will live life to the fullest. May this new year fill you all with love, peace, joy and may you be blessed in all of your endeavors...and now: ON WITH THE NEW YEAR!!!
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